I have a meal plan for this week but it’s not going up. Some of you rejoice, some of you are disappointed, others don’t care either way. At any rate, I’ve been meaning to just sit down and write for some time and Brian Gardner’s post today (titled “It’s OK to Publish Crappy Content” with a roll of toilet paper as the header image – love) kind of gave me the kick in the pants that I need.
I used to write on my blog…long posts about nothing in particular. I spent my days literally attached to a phone and in front of a computer waiting for people to call me and remove all of the money from their mutual fund accounts (okay, that’s not the only thing I did, but that was mostly what I did). In between calls, I spent hours redesigning, organizing, tweaking, skinning, CSSing, validating, whatever- and everything-ing my blog because I didn’t have anything better to do. I like to look back at the posts I wrote however many years ago today to see what I was up to and sometimes I make myself laugh because I remember using the phrase “I’m so busy” a lot back then and now realizing I really had no idea what the word “busy” meant. Sometimes I cringe to think of how much I shared when I share so little now. And sometimes I just sit back and let myself remember what it was like for me back then. Living on my own at age 20 with just a cat to keep me company, a job I didn’t really like (but was thankful for as it allowed me to not live in a cardboard box on the street), a car that didn’t really like me, and not a whole lot of friends living nearby. It’s hard to believe it was only thirteen years ago when it’s so far removed from the life I live now. Is that even the same girl?
I’ve been wanting to write more here….but I hesitate. A lot of it has to do with subscribers, of all things. I assume you subscribe or read because you want to read something helpful or useful (though I probably only have a handful of posts that fall into either of those categories), not because you want to read my inner ramblings. So I post meal plans week after week because it’s safe and not really about me. I had planned on posting a free printable desk calendar because that’s safe and something to give you (please be my friend!), but I haven’t gotten around to finishing it yet. I had planned on posting holiday guides of all shapes and sizes, but they’re still fluttering around on the edges of my brain with probably no intention of landing in an actual post any time soon. Plans plans plans. It’s especially difficult as a VA to not get caught up in providing something for you so you keep coming back as it’s what I see on sites I VA for (not that this is a bad thing, especially as it’s why they exist) and I see that it can work. Not getting caught up in stats, Facebook followers, Pins, and the social networking menagerie that propels traffic is hard because when the numbers are up, my self-esteem is up and when the numbers are down, it follows. It’s ridiculous as I’ve been doing this for fourteen years now….you’d think I wouldn’t care. But I always have (as those who have read my site since the beginning can attest to) and probably always will.
So here we are….and I’m not sure where that is, honestly. But that’s what I’ve been thinking about. Do you visit because you want to read helpful or useful things? Do you visit because you know me? Do you visit because you like the personal stuff? Why do you drop by?